Thinking...

Sometimes I feel like a 40 year old in a 23 year old body. I always worry too much and I really tend to over analyze things. I hate that about myself. I mean it‘s good to think and get things straight but sometimes my thoughts turn into something distracting or self defeating. I can‘t sleep anymore and I worry about things I shouldn‘t even be worried about. I really have to try to not think which consequently becomes thinking of not thinking. I don't really know if I am making any sense or not but just bear with me. I think that it can be a gift and a curse to have a never ending circle of thoughts. One of my New Year's resolutions is to try and make it my gift by creating a way to use it to my natural ability and advantage.

I‘m gonna let my worries float into the sky and relax!

Happy Nikolaus Day

christmas market

Last night I went to the christmas market with my very good friend Claudia. We talked, walked around, enjoyed some yummy food and hot spiced wine. We really had a good time and I really got into the christmas mood.

"Remember, if Christmas isn't found in your heart, 

you won't find it under a tree." 

~ Charlotte Carpenter ~

Advent Season & Birthday

So, my birthday is coming up next Sunday (Dec 13th). I'm so happy that I'm able to spend my birthday in Germany this year. I'm gonna miss Justin on that day but he told me last night that he bought me the cutest present ever. I'm kinda excited to find out what it is. He was so proud of himself. Two days ago he had no clue what to get me and yesterday he was all excited about it. I wish he could be here to actually GIVE me the present insetad of sending it but I'm so happy anyway. My birthday also means that it's Christmas Time. I love this time of year. My mom and I did some christmas decoration last week.







Tonight I'm gonna go to the Christmas market. I'm gonna eat SO much yummy food and I'm gonna drink hot spiced wine. Christmas feeling, here I come!!

baking cookies with Grandma

...missing my boyfriend!

It's been over a month since Justin went back to California. What a whirlwind of emotions we have gone though in this short time. I really miss him a lot. Some days are okay, some days are bad! We are doing okay though and I know that it will make us stronger each day.




Germany has been good to me so far. I love spending time with family & friends and I really enjoy being home. I just wish that eveybody could be in one place.

What I'm thankful for on Thanksgiving

I am thankful for

Family.Friends.Life and Love.